Worries turned turst
Worries. No one likes em. Still they come knocking…
Yesterday Tana and I were sitting in our front room, her at her easel and me at my desk, both just thinking and worrying out loud together. We’re both worried about school and the limited time until it comes. She’s worried about teaching, and I’m worried about everything else school related; finances mostly, but also getting back into the school mode. I anticipate it being a challenge to come out of my social life and into a study one. Also looking at my schedule overwhelms me… I will be working almost 40 hours a week and doing full time school, while trying to keep on at HHOP Tuesday nights (which starts again in September) and Thursday night bible study AND EPS whenever else it will fit! I will wake up at 6 and probably not be home until 10 everyday and it’s not the energy i’ll need that scares me, its just trying to manage all of that, while also managing all these wonderful new friendships the Lord has blessed me with this summer. Basically I mapped out my life for this coming fall and I realized I need a series of small miracles for it to all work out ideally. But God does not work ideally, so while I am praying for the ideal, I am bracing myself to adapt to whatever changes I need to.
Anyway, Tana finally said, lets just pray.
And it was in our prayer on the back porch where the Lord really spoke to our worried hearts, giving us Philippians 4:
“Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.”
I really know this what God was speaking to us yesterday, especially me. While I was at work, I put my zune on a random playlist I made, not knowing that I put some chapters from the audio bible on that particular playlist, and the first chapter that it played was this exact chapter. Ok God, I’m really listening!
We needed to pray over our fear and let go of our worries giving them to Him. I prayed for trust in His plans, believing he has called me to Grace, and He will fulfill what needs to be done for me to go there. Blessed be the name of the Lord, He provides and protects, and gives peace to our troubled hearts.
Now I’m about to go to a meeting with the financial aid office to talk about all this stuff, and to sign up for classes. I pray Lord for your blessing and favor as I face whats ahead of me. Please give me discernment and wisdom to pick the right classes and class times, and to understand what I must do to pay for school. May the praise be yours God, and may everything I do today and everyday be glorifying to you!
